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If you read no other part of this link, read this (but the whole post is worth your time):

I’m here to tell you instead, fellow white people, that Ferguson is about more than just one scared cop and one unarmed black teenager.

I’m here to ask you, fellow fishes, to wake up and smell the water.

I’m asking you to consider, if you have not already, that the anger and frustration pouring out of Ferguson is outrage at a system of power that does not include minority voices.

I’m asking you to consider the possibility that no one is “playing the race card.” I’m asking you to consider the very real possibility that America is, in fact, a racist place to live. And just because you don’t see it doesn’t mean that it is not there.

I’m asking you to imagine what it must be like to experience inequality, every single day, in ways that are sometimes small and subtle and sometimes overt and unjust.

I’m asking you to consider what it must be like to walk home at night and watch white people cross the street, fearful of their own safety. I’m asking you to imagine trying to hail a cab after a long day at work, but no cabs will stop. I’m asking you to imagine changing your name on a job application, because no one will hire you. I’m asking you to imagine telling your children not to wear hoodies when they leave the house, just in case.

I’m asking you to imagine putting your faith in a school system that suspends black students at triple the rate of their white peers, all the while cheerfully preaching the gospel of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr., but only, mind you, during the designated month of February. I’m asking you to imagine living in a shitty house in a shitty neighborhood, not because you want to, but because you are unable to move elsewhere due to housing discrimination.

And then – and only then, once you think about the everyday reality, once you actually try to imagine living your life without the benefits that being white has afforded you, I want you to consider what it must feel like hear the story of Roy Middleton, who was shot fifteen times in his own driveway because a neighbor assumed he was breaking into his own car. I’m asking you to consider the story of Henry Davis, who was beaten viciously by the Ferguson police department and later charged with property destruction for getting blood on their uniforms.

And then I’m asking you to consider what it must be like, to consider the body of Michael Brown, lying lifeless on the street for four and a half hours, and think, “Michael Brown looks like my brother. Michael Brown looks like my husband. Michael Brown looks like my son. Michael Brown looks like me.”

Because here is the thing, fellow white people. Racism isn’t over because Barack Obama is president. Racism isn’t over because Beyoncé. Racism isn’t over because Oprah. Racism didn’t end when we all read To Kill a Mockingbird in tenth-grade English class, and it’s not over now.

Racism is when you reduce a human being to a series of beliefs, stereotypes, or cultural identities that remove their ability to be seen as a unique individual. Just as you wouldn’t minimize any of my personal problems related to being a woman by saying, “But your problems aren’t real, because Hillary Clinton and Taylor Swift are both doing pretty great for themselves!!” – you cannot argue that having a black president is the hallmark of a country that has moved beyond the issues of race.

Racism is when you equate all black people in Ferguson with the specific few vandals who were looting buildings and smashing windows. Racism is inherent in the word “thugs.”

(Double irony points if you’re using the word “thug” now, but were one of the people celebrating on Broad Street in Philadelphia during the 2008 Phillies World Series win, when cars were burned and windows smashed and storefronts destroyed. I remember that evening well. Back then, we called them “fans.”)

I’m not interested in hearing anyone use the phrase “white guilt.” I’m not fucking guilty, and unless you’ve killed an unarmed black teenager lately, neither are you.

But I am angry. I am upset. I am striving to understand.

I want to think about using the phrase “white compassion.” I want to think about using the phrase “white ally,” or “white empathy.”

Because the truth is, my white friends, many of you have been really great at caring about what’s going on in Ferguson this week. Many of you have been posting and sharing and discussing and questioning and trying to unpack and understand. That’s awesome. That’s probably why we’re friends.

But as Ferguson burned, I also read posts from my white friends about how excited you are for Black Friday deals. Your outrage at FedEx for a misplaced package. Nail art. Weight loss advice.

You are the same people who dumped buckets of ice over your heads for ALS. You are the same people who wear t-shirts emblazoned with “Boston Strong.” You post that same picture of an eagle and the American flag on 9/11. “Never Forget.”

And when the riots began, you were …. instagramming photos of your dinner? Excited about your new H+M sweater? You literally have more to say about The Big Bang Theory than a national fucking tragedy?

I also received several OkCupid messages that night. All from white dudes. No, I don’t want to come to Cherry Hill and eat pizza with you. I’m watching the world burn down.

What that tells me is that, for some of you, the destruction in Ferguson was not a “Never Forget” situation, or a national tragedy, or even something to be particularly concerned about … because the bodies in the streets did not look like yours, or your family’s. Because it looks like “other.” Because the problems faced by Black America are not the same as the problems faced by White America, and therefore, they aren’t worth considering.

Perhaps you don’t see this because your number is closer to 99% than 91%.

White people, we have to do better.

FCK(exploitation of children in the name of feminism)

Yesterday I watched the FCKH8 commercial that used young girls as the mouthpieces for the ads “feminist” message. It was positioned as hip and provocative, and it quickly went viral.

I, however, was left feeling wildly uncomfortable, and it wasn’t watching children my daughter’s age drop F bombs and speak with stereotypical, obnoxious Valley Girl accents as though the only way to break through popular culture is to mimic the trope of a “dumb” female, that caused that nauseous pit to linger.

Today, my friend Meg shared a link to this post that unpacked so much of that unease:

It would be really great if FCKH8 would realize that using little girls as shock-value props in their t-shirt commercial is not feminist in any sense of the word. No little kid should have to wonder aloud whether or not they’ll be raped one day, and especially not just so some grownup can make money.

Look, I’m all for putting feminist ideology out in to popular culture but not at the expense of children, namely the young girls that this company is alleging to protect.

Currently Reading

Don’t watch the Ray Rice video. Read this instead.

But in a world in which one in four women is the victim of intimate partner violence and black women are disproportionately targeted, this victim blaming is not just irresponsible; it is lethal…

If we viewed victims as more than a link to be tweeted, more than statistics to be reported to a broken criminal justice system, we would have to grapple with their complex humanity. We would have to offer meaningful solutions to violence, holistic responses to trauma, and accountability for abusers whom we may love. We would have to do more than just watch.

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As someone who grew up in a Star Trek loving household, I was particularly moved by this blog post:

To that end, we’ve tried to make our literary dramatis personae more closely resemble the people of Earth. We’ve tried to include more people of African, Asian, and Southeast Asian ancestry than were seen in the televised and feature-film stories. We’ve tried to incorporate characters who hail from many cultures and viewpoints. We’ve tried to imagine a future in which people of all faiths have learned to live in harmony with people of other creeds as well as those who prefer to lead purely secular lives. We’ve tried to depict a future in which people’s gender identities are no longer limited to some arbitrary binary social construct, but rather reflect a more fluid sense of personal identity.

Why I’m a Feminist

This video captures rather quickly some of the many many reasons I call myself a Feminist. Thanks to the reader who sent it my way!

Currently Gawking

Welp, now I’ve had my morning cry. As if I didn’t already love and respect Colbie Caillat… thank you, you talented, beautiful woman, you.

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The message is simple: whatever you are doing in public, drop it to move to a private area. Shopping? Return to your vehicle. At a remote park? Find an abandoned train car. Think about others.

This article had me laughing and yet cringing from its spot-on, honest, scathing analysis of breastfeeding in the U.S. Do give it a read.  Many thanks to FGM G for putting it on my radar! (It took me back to this post from my early days breastfeeding Sunny. Five years ago this month! Oh I shall never forget that adventure to the Huntington Gardens in L.A. I wish I had had more confidence to just breastfeed her at the table during tea time rather than hide in a public restroom over a toilet seat.)

Motherhood

Her: Mommy, I want to be a Daddy not a Mommy when I grow up.

My stomach lurches. My mind races.

It jumps from personal insecurities about my own motherhood…

Is it because her Daddy spends more time with her than her Mommy?

Is it because her Daddy rubs her back whenever she requests it and her Mommy doesn’t have the patience?

Is it because her Daddy knows how to quiet her fears in ways that her Mommy just can’t figure out?

Is it because her Daddy plays hide-and-seek for hours on end while her Mommy abstains?

To broader cultural structures of power and privilege…

Is it because she thinks daddies are more fun than mommies?

Or worse, because she thinks daddies have more power and control than mommies?

To identity, sexuality and gender-constructs…

Does she want to be a boy? In her mind, is she a boy?

I take a deep breath, resisting the urge to impose my own assumptions and reactions on her innocent statement.

Me: If that’s what you want, sweetie, you can be a Daddy when you’re a parent. But can you tell me why you want to be a Daddy not a Mommy?

Her: I don’t want to grow a baby in my belly and push it out of my vagina. I think that would hurt.

Aha! The pitfalls of being so honest and transparent about all things biological.

Me: Okay, well, you know, you can still be a mommy without pushing a baby out of your vagina. You can adopt a baby or child and become a mommy.

Her: What does adopt mean?

Me: It means that another woman makes the baby in her body and pushes that baby out of her vagina, but that she isn’t able to be the parent or mommy, so you decide to be that baby’s parent.

Her: Oh, well then I want to be a mommy, but I want to be a mommy that adopts her baby.

Me: That’s really lovely sweetie, and you can do that, but you don’t have to worry about that for a little while. You still have lots of time to be a kid.

Her: Can I breastfeed my baby if I adopt her?

Me: It’s more complicated if you don’t make the baby in your body, but you can do some work with your doctors so you could breastfeed an adopted baby. It wouldn’t be easy, but you could do it.

Her: Work like on a computer in an office like you and Daddy do?

Me: No, more like physical work, like when we pull weeds in the garden and it makes your body tired. It’s complicated, but you could use a breast pump and take medicine and make your body create milk, even without growing the baby inside you. Or you could use a bottle and formula. You would get to decide.

Her: I really want to breastfeed my baby, mama. I can do hard work. And I can be a mommy. And I can adopt a baby and breastfeed my baby.

Me: Yes. Yes you can. And you’ll be an amazing mommy. But for now, let me be the mommy and you the kid, okay? 

Her: Okay, so can you please rub my back, Mama?

And so she falls asleep to the touch of one floored and loving Mommy.

#LikeAGirl

I watched this video for the first time last night. When they start asking young girls what it means to do something “like a girl,” I openly burst into tears. After watching, I asked Sunny to show me what it meant to her if I told her to “run like a girl.” She stood quizzically for a moment, and then sprinted down the hallway as fast as she could.

I proceeded to cry even harder.

May my girls always see their femaleness with such strength and pride.

Miraclesuit // 4

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Each time a woman stands up for herself, without knowing it possibly, without claiming it, she stands up for all women. – Maya Angelou

Here’s to relationships that allow us to be our truest selves, friendships that champion our strengths and forgive our weaknesses and never make us doubt who we are. I am grateful to the people in my life who do this, and for the strength it took to let go of the friendships that made me feel weak or uncertain or insecure. I am most grateful for the relationship I’ve cultivated with myself, for the love and care and respect I have for the person I’ve been, the person I am, and the person I will be. My daughters deserve a mother who knows her own value and worth, so that they may find their own.

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Thank you for sharing in these explorations about bodies and confidence and beauty and womanhood. You all have given me so much. (Post 1 and 2 and 3)

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Thanks, especially, to Miraclesuit for prompting and encouraging these explorations publicly. I’m pictured in the Up and Coming Caliente in Eggplant. And amazing friend Devita is wearing the Sanibel in Marine Blue.